August 16, Day 64. Felt a lot of feelings today while stuck in my tent. Woke up with the intention to go to Mason and I just couldn’t do it. I very slowly packed up my things in my tent and tried to eat some breakfast over three hours. You ever have those dreams where you’re trying to walk or run or fly but your body just won’t do it and it’s like you’re moving through tar, that’s what today felt like. It’s so easy to get into your head when the wind and rain outside are making your tent feel small. Still very congested with pain in my face and forehead where my sinuses are and a headache that barely goes away. My sinuses only clear when I take a cold medication that helps with all of those things but it comes right back when it wares off. Wondering if I have a sinus infection, it’s been like this for a week and a half, and I only get more exhausted as it goes on.
Had a good cry when I realized I couldn’t make it to Mason because of the fatigue and the future of the next week and a half still of high swell and wind meaning I would have to stay put even longer. On top of that I have picking ticks off of myself all day and finding new ones every couple of hours with their heads dug into me. I have a pretty massive fear of Lyme disease so I’ve been trying to stay calm about that too, since the areas I've been getting tick bites are high density areas where Lyme exists. I often take photos of my back to then zoom in and see if I have ticks stuck on, theres one in that photo. I took a nap and all I dreamt about was - what if the fatigue is from Lyme and just googling thing after thing in my dream. So it wasn’t all that relaxing. Finally some relief came when I had a chat with Steve and he suggested I take the time now to paddle the east coast and get that section done while I’m waiting. I was a little reluctant at first but the wind would be in my favor for that section to do it now and I can’t do anything over here anyway. He’s always got the best input, and has been a sounding board for me while I’m out here when I am stuck.So I’m feeling a little better now that I have a plan and Paul who I was staying with in Galway will come and collect me in the morning, then I’ll get a ride across with someone. Bit of an operation but otherwise I’m just loosing so much time. So hopefully this is a good choice.
